Sunday, April 08, 2007

One more little whine...

After sleeping most of the morning, I put some clothes on and took Pancho and Timmy to the dog park. I watched all the animals joyfully bouncing around, unashamedly sniffing one another's butts, just happy to go for a ride and be around other dogs for awhile. Their people are all chit-chatting, enjoying the afternoon. Me, I feel like I'm in some kind of an invisible bubble, isolated from everything and everyone else. The hollow achey feeling won't go away, and I feel certain that I've just blown my last chance EVER at a relationship happiness. Who would want me now?

I'll try to come up with something worthwhile to post next time. I apologize (if anyone reads this at all) for the self-pity party.

3 comments:

thailandchani said...

It's a testament to your strength that you are willing to try multiple times. The whole dating world is demeaning and humiliating.

Somehow, I have faith that you will find someone but it won't be through dating.


Peace,

~Chani

Patty said...

Thank you so much.

Anonymous said...

You already know the answers to all of your questions, you just aren't ready to accept the answers yet and move on...

I like Thailand Gal's thinking on the matter.

But you gotta be comfortable in your own skin before you can tackle another's emotions with yours. And you're decidedly not there yet; not this week anyway. But I have faith in you. :) And you'd BETTER be here Wednesday!