Maybe that's not such a bad line after all.
Last night, I made an executive decision to pick myself back up and get my "house" in order, both literally and figuratively speaking. And to light a fire under my butt, I'm giving myself 3 months/90 days. My most ambitious self improvement project since I quit drinking. I plan to transform myself, inside and out, by mid-July. And in the meantime, NO BOY HUNTING.
I've made some progress this year so far, but I'm still in the same rut I've been in for 5 years. A lot of my big plans got sidelined last year due to all my health issues, but that in itself was a major personal victory over the phobias that have plagued me since childhood.
I generally can only concentrate on one thing at a time, but I need to change that. I've chosen the 90 day deadline (July 16) so that I will have a sense of urgency, but still be able to achieve some significant accomplishments. I roughed some things out on paper last night, and the main things I would like to accomplish are:
1. Get a new job
2. Get the house decluttered - throw away, give away, organize "stuff"
3. Get the yard in reasonable shape - I'm ashamed to say I've done next to no yard work in almost a year.
4. Lose 20 lbs. - This one's going to be difficult; there's really not enough time in 3 mos., especially with all this other stuff I'll be doing.
5. Get out of the house 4 times a week, for at least an hour, either for exercise, or just some activity to get me OUT. Dog parks, treat myself to dinner once in awhile, sewing at Bonnie's, etc.
6. Reconnect with my hobbies - sewing, cross stitch, and KEEP WRITING.
The progress I've made so far includes taking the medical terminology course, which will be over in a few weeks, and thanks to Phil's prodding, I've applied for a job at his company. He seems to think I'm a natural for the position (promotional writing/editing), but I haven't heard a peep from the HR gods yet. If that fails, I'll throw myself wholeheartedly into doing the medical transcription work, and hopefully be doing it full time by the end of the year.
I've got to get unstuck, and maybe that's one of the reasons I can't seem to find the right relationship. The ultimate (and ulterior) motive is, of course, to find THE long term relationship, and I feel a little guilty for relying on an exterior source of motivation, however, I'm also a big fan of "whatever works," and if thinking about a future Mr. Right gets me out of the gate, then so be it. That's how I began my successful weight loss campaign 6 years ago (we won't talk about how much I've gained back since then).
Of course, the possibility exists, as I've discovered many times before, that I'll come out on the other side of this not having accomplished much of anything, due to loss of motivation, or having been shown once again how very little control I actually have over anything. But I have nothing to lose, and everything to gain.
And I am totally sick of pumping $200 in gasoline into my car every month.
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3 comments:
I am happy to see this. I hope this works for you!!
Good plan!! I applaud the process, and your efforts! Anything we can do to help...
Gosh, I know you have the best of intentions and want to get this all done quickly, but I sure think that you are trying to put WAY too much on your plate at one time!
Please rethink this - give it some more thought, OK?
I think you are setting yourself up for a great deal of stress and disappointment by trying to tackle all of these things at the same time.
You've just gone through a breakup. You're understandably feeling emotional. Take it easy on yourself. Give yourself some time to heal. Maybe 90 days of doing nothing but being nice to yourself? And doing healthy things (eat well, sleep, rest, etc.) that will help repair the hurt and make you stronger so you'll feel better able to tackle things effectively in the future?
Then, after that, possibly pick one thing to do - perhaps give that 90 days - and if you get it done, move onto the next thing?
I look at your list of things to do, and I think that it would probably take me longer than 90 days to just get one of those things done!
I think you are expecting WAY too much from yourself.
You're human, just like everyone else, give yourself a break, OK?
You seem like a nice person. Be nice to yourself. :-)
(From Marie, on the email lists)
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