More Uncertainty...

L. did show up at the park last night; I left again when he did, hoping for a shot at a date, or at least a chance to talk. He was saying he probably wouldn't be back at the park til the weekend, so I asked if he wanted to go get a bite to eat somewhere later this week. He said ok, but in a kinda sorta noncommital way, said Thursday was bad because of a work commitment. He asked about my schedule and I said any evening's ok (I guess that was a dumb answer), and I left not knowing who's supposed to call who. So I'm kinda scratching my head as to what to do. Also, it was a little uncomfortable because I could feel all eyes of everyone in the park watching us, out in the parking lot talking. I'm sure this is the juicy gossip of the week, even though nothing has happened! I'm sure he was even more aware of it than me, since he knows everyone fairly well.

So that was my night; happy to see him, but a little disappointed because 1) his response wasn't "Oh, I'd LOVE to, WHEN?" and seemed just lukewarm, 2) that no actual plans got made, and 3) I don't know who's supposed to do the calling. All of which led me to kick myself again, thinking I shouldn't have been the one doing the asking in the first place.

I was hoping to be able to get together BEFORE the weekend, so that it would be a short and sweet informal getting-to-know-you kind of date with a small "d," but it doesn't look like that's going to happen now. Since I'm back to doing the "strategy" thing, I figure it would be ok to call him on Wednesday night if I don't hear from him first, then maybe we can go out on Friday night or do something Saturday. I'd really like to have a REAL date, or just be able to see him away from the dog park so I can TALK to him in a more personal way, and not worry about what everybody is saying about it.

I'm trying to find a balance between the overeager me that scares 'em away, and a more patient me. But there probably won't be any miracle shifts in my ability to wait patiently. Which is why I made the "deal" with myself to wait just until Wednesday. As I said, I don't know who's supposed to do the calling; he may be waiting on me for all I know. I was also hoping that this would be easier and different than the norm, because this is truly a different sort of guy. But now it looks like all the usual rules apply, for awhile anyway. Still, I'm only going to take that so far. I'm not going to wait all week hoping he'll call. I'm going to do what feels "right" to me, and if one little misstep leads to scaring him away, then I guess he's not IT either.