Move along, nothing to see here

I want to write something postive, but I'm having an emotional "relapse" tonight. Regrets over my behavior with J., again. I'll ALWAYS regret the way this ended, and that I have no way to make it right. I've e-mailed and left phone messages, to the point of feeling like a stalker chick, and he just won't answer me. I hope I've learned something this time. I miss this guy in the worst way. He may not have been perfect, he may not have been Mr. Right, but now I'll never know for sure. And I had feelings for him that I haven't felt in a very long time. Years. This sucks.